Doomed 6 Anti-Odes To Life 1. The Doors A sea full of moribund stars Shores filled with lost lights The salvation waits where the rivers end Hundreds of monuments in it - silhouettes of the wrath Climb up, overcome all the strain and you'll find them This divine - as they dreamed before But they'll still hide what they felt before So bright shine all this weeping doors Sweet lies - but they'll still adore Nothing but treacherous hands And the greed blinds the eyes again The dried-up visions of change Killed all my ingenuous hope The roots of the grace are shattered Now your souls just have to be burned In another life - alone in solitude Not divine - as they dreamed before They'll still find what they felt before Some will cry if they see these doors from the opposite side Will hope die if they'll still adore The own reflections, old reflections I won't fear to stay here It's my will to stand firm I'll not leave I will live Hear this, life I will fight 2. Aura The grey veil has passed The light of my memories shimmers through the remaining clouds And death surrounds what's left of me Dead feelings lie like withering leaves below my feet My timeline - much clearer now But the brighter the light, the sharpener the outlines and shadows An aura of all my farewell scenes Surrounds me and I have To bear it and I'll never understand All these losses sense Collapse of light already started as The first ray of sunshine reached my eyes Why, life, are you ripping all these bonds I carry in my heart Say why I wish that they had never disappeared I wish you could return to me And take my fear away Aura 3. Touched I was touched by his hands I felt his presence It was deception It pulled me into the depths And thousands of eyes stared me while I was falling down Nothing that calmed me and I understood That is the true way There's nothing but fire Warm lights and silence - lies of those who sent back Being fearless - a mirage So I opened my heart And slowly everything became much clearer now THese voices and faces - all people I knew As if they had never been away But something is wrong I can see it in their eyes The love in this place Something is deceptive on these faces Now the masks appear like grimaces - lost Distorted illusions reveal my worst nightmares That's what he's waiting for - forevermore But time of my life I'll try to escape him - I'll try to face him The end of it all I refuse to accept that There must be a hiding place A moment when I can escape this haze Touched - say what is your truth Death - say me who are you really 4. Our Gifts A curse spreads where we are seen Inside the godlike there thrives a giant lie Nothing we feel is real Nothing we seal is real We give our greatness to Mother Earth She carries our burden all alone But we continue - nothing is wrong We will continue until everything is gone We gave our greatness to Mother Earth Since long ago we accept that she will die with us Poisoned are our gifts but we forgot Only nature is perfect She will recover from our reign Earth will arise Being ruined is alone our price 5. Reason You've seen my guilt - oh saviour My profane feelings fly away Your light let realize me Why I have all these reasons to die Sinful beliefs devour you Be a children of the truth and flee The sun let fail all secrecies Say why you stay on the path of the blind You've seen I failed - my saviour To feel you makes me cry I give myself in your hands - and I know Why I have all these reasons to die The belief in the fraud devours you Unleash your reason and flee The truth will absorb all disbelief Don't stay longer on the path of the blind Your mind can fight back to what's real Don't stay on the path of ruin Don't 6. Insignificant Slowly and steady everything is floating in infinity The asking for being - a stereotypical, narrow-minded thought Hostile cold and light that our eyes can't see How painful it is to question the universe You stop being existent and all that remains Is the incomparable beauty of a black hole The could devours us and embers the spits Out there great Mother Nature is silent We are so insignificant 'Cause we're unable to keep our part of the world in gratitude Our own pursuit for more will be our destiny Hopeless are the prospects for improvement Mindless are the contents of our views Useless are all the intentions and vows Treacherous are all the facades behind which we don't do anything Nothing that could change that But these thoughts wear me down Hate reigns - resentment burns our veins Snarling we insist on our trivial rights Blood drenched narcissists - self-glorifying The incest of our shortsightedness We build us ruins We always did 7. Layers (Ode to Life) Thoughts: The river of my time doesn't flow incessantly, because I alone am its source - but still he carries me and his water touches the shores of my life's stations How much I long to be immortal, to stay - how much I detest the death and fear him at the same time - to see, feel and hear again for the first time - just a dream The explosions of my senses where those of dying stars - I love the miracle of life - abhor so many of the living - it's the unanswered questions that make me live But as hard as it is, every farewell leaves more - parting, loss of love and attachment, pain and uncertainty - and yet I implore you, life, stay with me - let me stay So many times have you been good to me - I embrace you in joy and sadness