My Shameful Descend 1. Allconsuming Still growing from me The tree of the dead I kneel before you Under these leaves I lay me down Crush me now Take me from this day Under these leaves Slow gnawing Consume me Still growing From inside (of) me The day is coming Slow but sure I lay me down here And wait forevermore Forevermore Forevermore Time all I have It comes for me This thing still growing Inside (of) me My own flesh My own flesh Eat me away Take me from this day Crush me now Take me from this day Burn away with me I cleanse myself I cleanse myself With fire and fury I cleanse myself I cleanse myself I cleanse myself I cleanse myself I cleanse myself I cleanse myself I cleanse myself With fire... 2. Deity Of Retribution (Disrespect to us Disrespect to you and to me) Can you see what you've done What's become of us Can you see me coming for you Feel me behind you, now? And I will have my revenge To see you get what was coming (for you) And I will (have) see you crawling... (crawling now) Before all this is through... (all this is through) I call the furies onto you And you will pay for what you've done And I will have my revenge To see you get what was coming (for you) And I will (have) see you crawling... (crawling) Before all this is through... (all this is through) I am the god of vengeance I am the god of vengeance I am the god of vengeance I am the god of fury I am the god... 3. This Hate You do not deserve me Punishment too cruel to be This is all I have to give I bring the hate to be There is so much more to this All the things hidden from me Sick to root a tree will fall Take it down for better dawn So cold, so distant Never there, all the hate Piles up, flows over From me I confess all my sin(s) I know it's all my fault It's all my fault All the pain, (all) the hate I brought here I know it's all my fault It's all my fault Too late too take it all back again (again) [?] I wept not for you Nor for any of us I wept from the power of hate I confess it's still in me Drain me from all the blood Let the acid flow again Can you feel me closing in Welcome me and my hate 4. Of Haunting Been hiding here so long I fear they know me They know where to come To come for me I wait right here I wait... Now, the gates open See the darkness rip right through me Before my eye I come apart Torn apart by my own ghosts inside Ghosts inside... Yesterday is here again Now, the gates open Past flows out of me Like a river of filth and blood I try to keep myself from drowning There's nothing left but these hands of mine Haunt me forever The ghost of myself There's nowhere to run now I've nothing to hold me here Now they are back They are here Now, the ghosts of myself Now, they are here Now, the ghosts of myself Fear has become me I, afraid of my own hands [?] 5. Kill The Emptiness No longer do I know who is me Lost the idea of myself Somewhere along the road All that's been, all that's passed, all that's lost Broken into pieces inside of me Into emptiness I call To hear what nothing sounds like Into emptiness I call To touch forever Into emptiness I call Just to feel the dark look back at me Into emptiness I call This is where I lost myself Lost myself forever Piecing all together I try I try to find me again Had to lose all I had To come to this To understand this is nothing Nothing... Nothing means anything to me Let it all go, let it all go now Kill the emptiness in me Kill the emptiness in me To bring this to an end Kill the emptiness in me 6. Unrepentant Silence falls on this house of suffering Shadows past, now where to stay Did you know I'm afraid The darkness has fallen There's nothing out there There's nothing out there I will stand on my own Hold my head up high 'til I'm gone You will never see kneel down In this rain I will walk 'til the end comes See how the rain now falls Upon this house of pain The rain falls now heavy I saw the sun go down Down... Down... There's nothing out there There's nothing out there Nothing... There's nothing out there See the dark shine through me I am here now Never to leave This house of pain Took me in from the rain 7. Self-Abuse Sick of this yearning for rain There must be something more than this What is wrong with me, what is wrong in me Why seek to be hurt... to be hurt All illusion of life and beyond Believe what you will Nothing waits for (you and for) me Make the pain my light To guide me through this Make the pain my light To guide me through this Life and beyond Make the pain my light To guide me through this Life and beyond Through self-abuse Self-Sacrifice Purify me through pain Purify me through pain Slow on my way To the gardens of nothing Purify me through pain Purify me through pain [?] Make the pain my light To guide me through this Life and beyond