Pallbearer Forgotten Days 1. Forgotten Days Dark clouds move closer At the edges of my mind Obscuring Consuming my perception of time So strange, the sensation I’ve come to know it well It comes with sinister negation To erase my identity Is this insanity? Will they come to take me? Who can I trust with tomorrow? I can barely trust myself These years, my lifetime Everything I am I can feel them slipping away Like sand through my fragile hands Oh god, how can you let this happen to me? Once strong Now I’m frail With a haze around my mind Is this insanity? Will they come to take me? Who can I trust with tomorrow? I’ve got no trust in myself Through time I’m trapped inside A prisoner, my memories lie Times have changed And so have I All these faces, I don’t recognize Is this insanity? Will they come to take me? Who can I trust with tomorrow? I no longer know myself 2. Riverbed I wore away, as years washed by Like a stone in any riverbed to find But I am flesh and bone, awaiting peace of mind I've lost myself in thoughts of days behind Distant memories Form constellations of despair Guiding through the state of disrepair Illuminate All the hurts that have accrued Unlock the cage, holding back the truth I'll beg to start anew If it will cauterize the wounds Damn these rivers of bad blood And quell the raging of the flood Worn away, the years crawl by As arbors wither slow, becoming deserts, dry Along with flesh and bone, beset on every side By misery, borne within the mind Distant silhouettes Nearly all of them obscured Exposed to be The damages incurred I'll beg to start anew If it will cauterize the wounds Damn these rivers of bad blood And quell the raging of the flood Laying down in the riverbed Counting the words that I've never said to you Their numbers swell so far above my head Wide-open eyes drink in torrential red As I drown 3. Stasis Ain't it hard To find a new start When you don't really want To change Waste away Clone your moments Every day you know Things will stay the same This place So hollow Seems like a prison cell to me A bed of lies The place where you hide Is that enough To get you by? Your face So hollow Do you need a reason to smile again Your life is worth to much To waste the whole thing Wasted and wrapped up In yourself Stasis Stasis Stasis Living in stasis 4. Silver Wings Silver wings circle Portents of a strange past returning Over bones of crippled behemoths I tread through the mire In the mists, I can feel it Looming as a vulture Eyes fall upon me Searching, shifting in judgement So small, so weak... Pale in the dimming light of æons Near the river, I see it Jet black and silent Approaching, I'm diminished By mysteries of 10,000 ages I cannot remember From where I came And I cannot remember Who I once was The slow march of time Turns even the greatest of triumphs To nothing Nothing more than sand Washed into the infinite sea 5. The Quicksand of Existing With every step I take I test the ground before Since I know That each day Uncovers ways to suffocate myself I just might breathe my last Before I’ve sunken down My uncertain sight Could mask the ground before Hence, I know That each night Presents a chance to paralyze myself When poison clouds the past Before I’ve sunken down I know I’m called To sink below By siren song, singing: “Let your struggle go And fill your lungs Up to the brim Join in refrains Of our viscous hymn” As long as I’m alive The darker days will always multiply Ad nauseam, until I’ve sunken down And down Soon I’ll be enveloped by the ground Upon my presence here: Alight a quicksand shroud When I’m sunken down 6. Vengeance & Ruination Under the shadows of high walls The condemned is led blindly to doom In the place where blood falls And fills the earth, damnation blooms Carve away dignity Piece by piece For all to see Stripped and flayed Humanity For the lost No sympathy Cries for deliverance Echo through halls of pain Vengeance and ruination Flows in crimson rivers The agony of castigation An offering to the true god death delivered Carve away dignity Piece by piece For all to see Stripped and flayed Humanity For the lost No sympathy Cries for deliverance Echo through halls of pain This ritual of violence Yet another link in the never-ending chain Eye for an eye Crime for a crime The true measure of power The ability to inflict cruelty with impunity Cries for deliverance Echo through halls of pain This ritual of violence Yet another link in the never-ending chain 7. Rite of Passage Feasting eyes on wreckage that surrounds me Makes me wonder if I ever learned to live I have such little recognition Of what I was when I could still see your face The many flaws, of my own admission; A void supreme, I can’t pull away This rite of passage It took all of these years, but now I finally know One question to ask of you Did part of me die while watching you go? In the soul, the frailty is seated Gnawing doubts that I ever learned to live Look upon the days since you’ve departed My grand accounting of errances made This ache, incessant once it started As I espouse a meditation on decay This rite of passage It took all of these years, but now I finally know One question to ask of you Did part of me die while watching you go? This rite of passage It took all of these years, but now I’m finally shown The cavity that grows within Vacant space that was left a lifetime ago Not fully alive Just a shadow to be Will I be revived? Or transfixed in between 8. Caledonia I wasn't prepared to face the final hues To watch the color fade and let go of my youth Walls were built to hide it all from view Still standing now, still as resolute I could hardly muster a goodbye Pleading for numbness to arrive Though it meant I'd never fully heal I lost the will to let myself feel Caledonia I wasn't aware That fate would plunge the knife I'd watched the color fade out from joys of life Walls of guilt can hide it all from view I try to tear them down Still they are renewed I can hardly muster a goodbye And I'm pleading for numbness to survive Every day when clarity reveals I've lost the will to let myself heal Caledonia From the depths of your being One last moment awake From the depths of my being I've never ceased to escape From Caledonia (From Caledonia) Caledonia (Caledonia)