Thränenkind
       Hope(less)

1.	An Hour and Ten Minutes (Failure)

Too often I am less of a friend
Than just a fucking enemy
Sorry for mistreating you and everyone else around you
Dark days - I´m grounded in my mind
It´s damn hard to do what´s right
Surrounded by what´s wrong
Feeling like the worst failure of all
Hurting the ones I am supposed to love
I once thought I was irreplaceable, I should have known better...


2.	April

A painfull lesson to be learned
Distances mean certainty to me
Loopholes in every situation
Commitment is the greatest fear
Antagonize the one in control
I´m still my own worst enemy
Reflecting what I´ve done
A rash promise: I´ll be there
Step out of the shadow of my past mistakes
But I´ll stay the sad and pissed off boy you‘ve known
Who refuses to find peace in life´s circumstances
Struggling from day to day, breaking the patterns of my behaviour
I surely won´t let the demons win.
“Until I´m there“
But not this city and not in April.