The River In Situ 1. To Bring Closure Don't wanna hear about your day I'm sure I've had one just the same Do you really think that you're alone I don't know quite what you achieve You're not so young, but still naive These are things that I just can't condone Avaricious voice of you, Self oblivious, just not true No one will feel it in your eyes Do you know what you'll become? Give your sorry world a hope Left alone you just might realize Down is darker than it should be All the lights are dim so low And the traffic that's in sight No one stops to speak to you Cause you have no time for others They just keep themselves inside Don't wanna hear about your day Sure it really hasn't changed Would you listen if I told you? When there's nothing I could say To help you try to change your ways Is your isolation coming through? I don't want to be a friend That's not the way to bring closure I try, but I can't pretend That I ever felt anything for you Rumours flow and people whisper But they don't know much at all I don't want to be a friend That's not the way to bring closure 2. Broken Spirit Theory I see the light coming in, I feel your fingers on my skin I don't want this feeling to end I feel your darkness pull me down So deep that I might drown, I don't want this feeling to end There's something here that's just not right Grips my chest, so hold on tight Never thought that this would end I walked away, no reasons why, No chance to talk or say goodbye Never thought that this could end You didn't notice that I turned and walked away some time ago, You're more obsessed of how I look with you than how we really feel I'm not so weak that I can't leave this fight, but others may have said You didn't notice that I turned and walked away It makes no sense to you when you see me smile now that I'm alone I made my decision and I'm glad my emptiness confuses you I'm happy, so content I have the time to be myself again You finally noticed that I turned and walked away And so I'm back again inside my empty, hollow, squalid place Though this means the end is so close when it tingles with deceit Surrounded by things still, that I have the time to try and feel awake Although it's worthless, I can take some pride in knowing that it's right I gaze through the window's pane and the hazy sun is here after the rain It seems so fresh outside, I feel my mood lift as I realize I may have nothing, but I'm in a better place than where I left you I won't reciprocate, my spirit is not broken! 3. In Situ 4. Like Clockwork, Little Happiness Like clockwork, little happiness, Like clockwork, little happiness You'll have to excuse me if I'm quiet today Made something out of nothing but I don't want to say You smiled when you saw me, stood aside and let me in So much to talk over, but where to begin? I don't want to tell you if you don't know what's wrong Your heart's not been in this, I've known all along For the sake of our friendship, I hope it will last, We need to see this through I doubt that you'll listen when I tell you the truth You're too self-possessed, but that's up to you I tried to accept this, allow you the space, You're too quiet to notice to allow me such grace I put in all the effort just to keep you appeased We need to start over, to spread and release Realizing ambition on our own separate paths I think we've seen this through 5. Opaque Today it rained again, A scent lay heavy in the air A punctured sky let in the half-light The bruised horizon fell away Beyond the broken window pane, An empty bottle fills my numb sight The smell of razors with the rain Break the skin to find the vein A blooded stream of broken lives I sing with deathless sense Open me and all shall end It's all too easy watching you cry I watch a bloodlit sky I feel opaque, but why? Smear me with your blood, Sing your grave songs from below Teach me how it feels to be alive 6. Lifer Don't know quite what you mean to me I try to voice my concerns I carried you so many times One day I hope you'll learn Accept this is not who you are You need to try and provide Your arrogance stops you hearing me How was I to keep this in? So go back to your funerals The pleasures have no meaning You have your pride to feel at all So crawl away the ambiance Of something that needs soothing Such courtesies will still befall The dungeons that we're into I follow with ambition At no expense of who I am It's colder where you're seated A God just stands holed up with you And you admit it if it helped I try to make you see reason I try to make you see sense My world turns, for around you Your vanity is too immense You like getting attention No ideal, nothing's good Yet you'll come to me to protect you I don't want to anymore I can't deny it's getting to me I can't deny I doubt you'll change At least my values are strong enough I'll be here when you're gone, I'm a lifer 7. Interlude 8. Frailties It seems so strange, I've known you so long But I've never found the strength to say Just how I feel when you are near me But I've never even spoken to you I've seen you smile, I've seen you frown And I'd like to get to know you Fear of rejection keeps holding me down And I doubt that I will overcome It's funny how I keep this inside When I have nothing to lose by speaking out I won't get hurt by keeping my silence Even though I owe it to myself I believe there could be something between us If only I'd explain my thoughts How I can be, sometimes it's not me, But it's better if I just hide away Sometimes I feel okay, And sometimes I'm just not me And sometimes when I'm around you I simply don't know how to be Sometimes I'm scared, I'm scared And sometimes I think you know I couldn't ever tell you my secrets Just my frailties, it's just my frailties Life, it seems, never ready Lost in my own Paradise The innocent purity Every time is forever My past behind me, The uncertain future stands before me Striving for peace and harmony And feelings lost are forgotten Now I see the light, This restful gaze brings us down from the skies Any night it praised, Like a spirit finally returned Corridor thoughts, This reflected romance redefines my mind Feel safe to come out of the shadow Bring my frailties to an end