Aphonic Threnody The Loneliest Walk 1. Empathy I feel nothing Emptiness pulls me in Shadows mourn for me A vessel carrying only heartache A lost soul Wonders this bleak landscape I look upon the ground wishing to return A sadness that can’t be cured This world means nothing to me Silence and peace I crave Broken, I am so broken I am so broken A life I could easily forget My death seems far away It’s a hard burden to live on A light, That is all I seek A chance to feel a warm embrace These thoughts feed my despair Cutting through skin to remember Once I had these dreams Now washed away forever When I fall don’t mourn for me For I’m in a better place No more tomorrows Silently I take my last breath The afterlife will be a haven I hope for peace but still yearn for pain I feel alive when I’m hurting I look and await, I don’t care for anything I am numb to all that exists Feeling love but to know what it is To have empathy but to show none No one will ever understand me We are vessels of hate Born to destroy one another I can live with destruction Inside the rage awaits 2. The Sun Will Never Rise My eyes looked to the night For a peace I could find Sadness overwhelmed me I already knew I was condemned The air fills with hatred Every moment is misery The sun will never rise For my life was cursed with lies In the shadow of a dead tree I lay my head on grassy dew My body trembles breathlessly The cold entwines around me Fading away, my thoughts devour me A heart that’s empty of love Do not pity me For even in death, I’ll be alone The sun will never rise Over my place of restless stone The sun will never rise For my life was cursed with lies In the shadow of a dead tree I lay my head on grassy dew This earth to which I return Take my blood, feed your thirst Echoes of the past fade away A warm breeze soothes the night My bones lie silently For a long time, they felt the warmth Of summers past and winters to come Now this landscape shares my secrets The sun will never rise For my life was cursed with lies Mist covers these silent waters A blanket of despair so cold In the shadow of a dead tree I lay my head on grassy dew I have bled for too long These old scars never fade For I am always reminded That pain remains my friend The sun will never rise For my life was cursed with lies In the shadow of a dead tree I lay my head on grassy dew 3. Interlude 1 - Moonlight 4. The Loneliest Walk My feet burn with pain Sweat drips upon the ground A distant song plays its harmonies This wreckage I call my own Calmness surrounds me My bones feel lifeless I know longer plea for mercy For these horrors grow inside me Hours turn to days My corpse a welcome meal For these dark shapes They have only time I am almost done My last breath all but gone I ask for death to come quickly For the omens are bound to me Gazing to the canvas above Creating my last memory Hands touch earth once more The darkness slowly descends This is my loneliest walk Bitterness my last taste Goodbye to the world I detest Swallow and consume all of me The freshness of the morning air Crows pecking at fresh meat Soon bones are all that remain Ghostly figure of shame Wandering the forests Looking for a way to escape This lost soul searches for home Towards the light it follows 5. To Mourn a Mother Your soft voice still whispers to me Memories that still cut deep Your gentle touch kept me safe Though the years were not kind A proud woman you were A pale glimmer that shone alone Silently our time together faded away My anguish, my pain was ignored Left alone I wept tears of woe How I longed to hear your voice Death is always shrouded in blackness My grief was to be denied Thrown to the wolves who weave lies I lay beneath a small window Looking for the sky to carry away my hurt I tasted freedom but felt trapped Would I ever mourn for my mother An empty shell my tears burned away Inside I have nothing but fear How cruel life is to be cast aside without hope Years have past since you went away So many days I prayed to die My god had abandoned me He left me to rot away in despair I cursed his name as I opened my skin Another chapter yet complete Another chapter yet complete Another chapter yet complete Another chapter, Another chapter Another chapter yet complete 1. Condemnation Abandoned and condemned A rotten corpse that slowly decays Inside I am hollow All my life blood slowly fades Emptiness for this world The seed of hatred quietly flowers Mouths whisper Looks of scorn and disdain These awful feelings will not subside Secrets only the dead will reveal Entombed in this chamber I weep I hover between life and death The truth slowly seeps out Like water it finds its way free I stand no longer accused The healing will take time The sun can hide away my grief The night brings such nightmares Shadowing my every move These shackles hold me in fear I want my freedom I need closure For I dwell in a deep dark place Searching my soul for a warm light Why am I so angry and bitter? Dwelling in this forsaken hole My dying wish is for inner peace This book of lies no longer tricks me I see through its false ideas These wasteful tellers manipulate I hear them and curse at their existence My condemnation my forgiveness Bring my shame, swallow my pride My condemnation, my forgiveness Bring my shame, swallow my pride My condemnation, my forgiveness Bring my shame, swallow my pride My condemnation, my forgiveness 2. These Four Walls These walls are my comfort These walls are my friend Countless hours staring Emptiness and no hope The concrete is cold and grey Yet I long to be with my old friend The hours pass so slow I fear the unknown that awaits The change will be too much I’ve lived so long in isolation Destiny is death without a name A white stone that fades to dust Eyes are always watching…always watching My freedom no longer matters…no longer matters For these walls are my comfort…my comfort For these walls are my friend…my only friend Tears have long dried away…dried away These memories bare a heavy heart…a heavy heart To feel the sun on my back…on my back Gives me peace and solitude I have looked but found no reason Crest fallen my liberty vanishes Footsteps and the rattle of keys What lies ahead I know not Blessed is a man with hope A coffin encased in sorrow My walls give me comfort My walls are my friend My comfort, my only friend My comfort, my only friend 3. Interlude 2 - To Tell a Story of Darkness 4. A Worthless Life I opened my arms to welcome you in Only betrayal, a life full of sin I’m so sick of these wasteful thoughts Every battle inside I bled and fought I drank deeply from a dark well It pulled me under to a new hell Cast aside all that I believed Why had I always underachieved My hands showed a bleak history Of stories coated in dark mystery Longing to find a place to hide Someone to love by my side Follow me into oblivion Across oceans to my fallen kin The stars guide the chosen way To the forgotten wherever they lay When I first crawled out of that hole The sun burnt my unclean soul A hopeless witness to a worthless life A wretched man with a worthless life A face that no longer resembles who I was I fear walking alone o be so afraid of a future unknown The rain runs red over my eyes As the whole world burns blood The end is so close A wretched man with a worthless life 5. The Beginning The change of the seasons Bring forth these dead carcasses The smell of decay lingers The morning fog ascends I touch the wet earth A feeling I know well The air I breathe gives me hope A new beginning is born I long to feel warmth Too long have I spent in the cold I have to believe there’s more Then just this empty dream My bones ache of a dark history When I had nothing but loss The trees sway like memories That fade amongst the leaves the pain starts to ease Each moment is a sweet embrace For I feel loved once again My time is just beginning