Officium Triste Reason 1. In Pouring Rain In pouring rain I drown in thoughts Angels’ tears They cry to god Soaking wet I clench my fists I wonder what’s amiss I scream towards the pouring sky Cursing life and asking why In pouring rain I drown in thoughts I have no clue I am lost Why? Why me? What have I done? Why am I the one? It riddles me These cryptic mysteries Falling onto me Like the rain From the grey clouds Above me In pouring rain I drown in thoughts Angels’ tears They cry to god Soaking wet I clench my fists I wonder what’s amiss I scream towards the pouring sky Cursing life and asking why In pouring rain I drown in thoughts I have no clue I am lost 2. The Silent Witness I cannot think of a reason A question without an answer An answer I can’t give I am the silent witness To all misery Created by lies and deceit I can’t find The missing pieces of this puzzle Puzzled I am I still can’t speak A silent witness forever On a quest for the answer I seek Even others cannot help For they have no sight Of what’s inside Talking ain’t no solution Because they don’t see They don’t see What the question is The reason of being me I cannot think of a reason That’s the question 3. This Inner Twist All Dreams and Hopes are lost Everything’s shattered I’d rather leave it all be And move on to something better ‘cause it sickens me it’s all so unreal twisting inside of me What will be better? What am I to expect? Fields of Fire Or some peace of mind Is this a decision I’m going to regret This inner twist Messing with my head All dreams and hopes are lost Everything’s shattered What will be better? What am I to expect? Fields of Fire Or a heavenly choir This Inner Twist It’s getting Worse Is there a reason to exist Or am I cursed All these questions In my mind No one can answer No more smiles No more laughter As I sink Into the depths Of eternal misery. 4. The Sun Doesn't Shine Anymore The sun doesn’t shine anymore Grey clouds cover the sky forevermore And I miss you, your smile, your laughing face And the twinkles of joy in your eyes I know you are there Yet you are so far away A part of me has died A part that chose not to stay Wishful thoughts In my mind All the time Thoughts of vengeance to ease my mind I know you are there Yet you are so far away A part of me has died A part that chose not to stay Wishful thoughts In my mind All the time The thought of holding you tight In my arms On a day Under the blue sky In the sunshine Burning bright On a day In my arms Under the blue sky I fear this is a Utopian dream Reality ain’t the same no more Real life equals horror In real life I am game Being hunted by reality Reality which is unfair And i’ll always miss you I am here and you are there 5. A Flower In Decay Your scent The smell of flowers in decay So sad The way you sit there, rotting away So young With a lot of plans and dreams They’re lost Life’s unfair, so it seems All hope is gone No spark of brightness in sight You gave up You don’t want to fight this fight Your scent The smell of flowers in decay So sad You’re rotting away A battle lost before it even started Leaving me behind, broken hearted I couldn’t imagine you would lose That this is the end That you would choose I understand you are in pain That living life becomes a strain You’d rather be up there amongst angels Because the demons inside are too painful Line-up: Johan Kwakernaak - Guitar Gerard - Guitar Pim Blankenstein - Vocals Martin Kwakernaak - Drums and Synth Lawrence Mayer - bass