Aborym Shifting.Negative 1. Unpleasantness Everything I have doesn't mean a thing (I) don't know if you're aware of what's happening I try to move but it gets harder everyday I can't make things any plainer, the words get in the way I saw your face in a pretty magazine I've tried to forgive you but you're still a mystery Hopelessly mistaken spluttering decay I feel the vibes that unites us start to fade Everything you've done was wrong and pointless Of all the things you've lost, you miss your mind the most A million lies that now define the borderline I wake up every night with (this) emptiness inside Rats are running wild in the streets. They have nothing to claim Geolocated predators made to spy I see them digging a hole in my neighborhood Congregate until they're much too loud Which was the weirdest thing you've done? The one you did to me? Which was the most absurd disturbing thing you said? You try to wash away the taste of evidence I’m floating in the puddle of unpleasantness (You) don't scurry when something bigger comes your way You undernourished ego yearning for a prey You are not my eater and I’ll never be your food I trap the beads of sweat that run between my eyes Trying to keep it all out of sight and mind Ever had the feeling you've been here before? I belong somewhere else, anywhere but here And to find it cost me everything I have ...but..everything I have doesn't mean a thing Everything I have doesn't mean a thing Everything I have doesn't mean a thing Everything I have doesn't mean a thing 2. Precarious I never thought I'd find a place to hide my fears. A neon illuminate the pieces of a script. Seclusion is so warm for me, myself and I. The silence eats my skin and everything I did. Rusted promises no morning to define. I can see the smoke and I can smell the fire I'm trying to survive ... I will be fine. 3. Decadence in a Nutshell A rusty razor stares back at me Drug to cure the hurt Everything they said turned to lie Slow down, let go, lie down A one by one we fall Slow down, let go, lie down Everything sucks so much Destroy - overwhelm - annihilates your gods! Terrorize the killers - blow ‘em out! Fuck kleptocracy! Living a short disappointing life It’s like moving inside a game With no fuckin’ chance to win Slow down, let go, lie down A one by one we fall Slow down, let go, lie down Everything sucks so much This world is not for me...not for me This world is not for me...not for me This world is not for me...not for me This world is not for me...not for me Fuck kleptocracy! Destroy - overwhelm - annihilates your gods! Terrorize the killers - blow ‘em out! Fuck kleptocracy! Destroy - overwhelm - annihilates your gods! Terrorize the killers - blow ‘em out! Fuck kleptocracy! 4. 10050 Cielo Drive Always is always forever As one is one is one Inside yourself for your father All is none all is none all is none If I started murdering people there’d be none of you left If I started murdering people there’d be none of you left If I started murdering people there’d be none of you left If I started murdering people there’d be none of you left It's time to drop all from behind us The illusion has been just a dream The Valley of Death may not find you Now as then on a sunshine beam So bring only your perfection For then life will surely be No cold no fear no hunger You can see… you can see All the fuckin’ pigs must die now! - So bring only your perfection All the fuckin’ pigs must die now! - For then life will surely be All the fuckin’ pigs must die now! - No cold no fear no hunger All the fuckin’ pigs must die now! - no hunger.. you can see If I started murdering people there’d be none of you left If I started murdering people there’d be none of you left If I started murdering people there’d be none of you left If I started murdering people there’d be none of you left Always is always forever As one is one is one Inside yourself for your father All is none all is none all is none It's time to drop all from behind us The illusion has been just a dream The Valley of Death may not find you Now as then on a sunshine beam So bring only your perfection For then life will surely be No cold no fear no hunger You can see...you can see...you can see 5. Slipping Through the Cracks Just when you think you've seen everything Just when you think you've covered every loophole Just when you think you got it made Just when you think you've seen it all Just when you think you've got things figured out Just when it seems like everything's going according to plan Just when you think you've answered all the questions another one smacks you in the face Even when you think you've come a very long way Even when you think you've waited long enough And just when you think you've finally got your bearings That's when something happens, then that bomb comes out of the blue And then you start it again And then start to fall again You kept your promises, never have you failed If something was not right, your money swept it away There's nothing left for you to buy And everything you own won't help you when you cry And then you start it again And then start to fall again Now you have to do it again starting from the beginning You got lost in the loop of unpredictability Now you have to do it again starting from the beginning God push the button and you start to fade out Catch a falling star Hanging down the sound You tell a thousand lies Been told a thousand times You are walking the dead line With a pair of broken shoes No one can help you now No light to show the way Then you start it again God wants you to fade Falling in the black Slipping through the cracks Now you have to do it again starting from the beginning You got lost in the loop of unpredictability Now you have to do it again starting from the beginning God push the button and you start to fade out Now you have to do it again starting from the beginning You got lost in the loop of unpredictability Now you have to do it again starting from the beginning God push the button and you start to fade out 6. You Can't Handle the Truth You can’t handle the truth ‘cause there is not enough space in the white box You can’t handle the truth ‘cause everything I've built is on the line You can’t handle the truth ‘cause I can live somewhere new for a while You can’t handle the truth Where the secrets are trying to force the grave and get out You can’t handle the truth You know how this world can hurl me down Because wars harm both sides Pull the curtain back and let the show begin The darkness changed to red-light Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come Lift me up and help me to fly Hey, can you hear me? You can’t handle the truth Because this dreadful manmade miracle pays for itself You can’t handle the truth You cultivate the space and ghosts between my thoughts You can’t handle the truth Why don’t you enlighten my way? You only block my progress You can’t handle the truth Please stop the lying, my mind is under siege You can’t handle the truth 7. For a Better Past When you cross my eyes Hope it gives you hell I’m an empty body Tired of feeling alone It hurts to be left out It's been this way for years It happens everyday And I try To forget To forgive I'm denying you all And everything you’ve done for me I reject you all With a big smile on my face I'm the nightmare dressed like a daydream I'm the nightmare you fell asleep in When you walk my way Hope it gives you hell I can feel your panic Someone told me once that There's a right and wrong Choices always were a problem for me I deny Everything you’ve done for me I reject you all With a big smile on my face I'm denying you all And all your pathetic whimpers I reject you all And all your failed attempts I'm denying you all! 8. Tragedies for Sale There is not much left to hide I’m wrong about everything You point the finger at me I don't owe you anything You slam the door in my face Instead of wondering why How is it that I feel fine And I don’t know who to trust I’m just a ghost in a mass Not even trying to stand out Give me enough rope and I Will hang myself and my lies I’m just a whisper of smoke No second chance for a despised Go and sell some other lies More futures to advertise I learnt to write and to read I learnt to avoid obstacles To walk the dead-line alone And to cohabit with pain No one hears and no one sees My moves, my hysterical thoughts What I wrote on my sheets And what I tried to tell you My sharp projection on you Isn't good as it seems Wearisome theraphy To figure out what is real The fear of loosing control Annihilates the way out Too much sex, too much drugs Broken glasses around Lusting the vicious white pills That sent us up to the sky Struggling hard through the nights Shuffling fast through the days I learnt to sell tragedies To feel guilty and to accept The tragic consequences For everything I’ve done 9. Going New Places You think me a fool, looking down But my mind's eye alone can raze your towns Your children see me as God above I taught them that death is the ultimate love Pain is not bad, it teaches you things Welcome your darkness, it endows you with wings I din't put knives in your children's hands I taught your castaways to make their own stand Piggies take shelter Fire and strife Helter Skelter Black against white You hate me and judge me Revile and begrudge me But you can't deny that Your shadow self loves me I have no malice for you I have no malice for you From their birth as bastards Alone and confused But I knew better: Even broken things serve a use A father's love and devotion I promised Carnal and earthly delights We rejected your meaning of normal We refused to be right I have X'd myself from your world I'm iconic, psychotic, California state bird I have no use for money, never lacked for girls Sooner or later, my visions unfurl Piggies take shelter Fire and strife Helter Skelter Black against white You hate me and judge me Revile and begrudge me But you can't deny that Your shadow self loves me 10. Big H Like many times before I nod off again In seconds I come to, unsure of where I am Intentional overdose Never thought, I could be this close to dying Big H, leaking through my pores The roller coaster of my life had no track My pool was all tidal waves and deep end I couldn’t depend on myself To feed myself needed a shot to jumpstart my heart And just be myself A circle I could never break And matter of fact That roller coaster did have a track But it was all flat Surprise motherfucker! You are the only one that matters You are the only one I need You are the only one that knows me You are the only one I trust You are the only one I lean on The only one that's ever been enough Big H thank you, for your invention I'll be sure not to leave your side We'll become very fast acquainted My naive child, there's no use trying to hide You are the only one I ever loved You're the only one I trust! Intentional overdose Big H, take me down