Traumatic Voyage Trauma... Life Is War Life is war... life is war... war... life is an endless war to stay alive... a war which nobody will survive... life ends always deadly... and 'till your dying day you live in fear! Born into a decaying world... into a blinded, self destroying race! Born to die... live to work... work for a corrupting god to survive! Burn your soul... split your tongue... fear is the bearer of lies... scared by life... you betray yourself. your thoughts turn in senseless circles around ridiculous things! Life is war... as long as I breath... life is war... 'till I'm dead! Still I'm waiting for the last day of light... when the human engine finally stands still and eternal night covers the burned-out land... the moment when all clocks stop ticking... and time as mankind has known does'nt exist anymore... the end will come... and this reality will break down... and chaos brought by man's hand... destroys what's left from this dying paradise! Everywhere I can see the coming downfall... and your eyes are already dead! The light fades away... and immortal shadows float through blackend trees... Winter has come across the desert land... and cold winds brought the mercyful silence of oblivion... in those long and frosty winternights I feel a joyful warmth in my heart... Forgotten is all the sorrow of days in the burning sun... as the falling snow covers the sleepling earth... In solitude .... I am myself... in the void... I think the unthought... unwritten... is the future... what will come... has to come... Existence,has no definition in mankinds knowledge! Dark are the ways I've wandered... lightless corridors between the dimensions I've passed... I've crossed the neverland and saw where the dead have gone... And I'm here to tell you there's no hope for you... heaven is a rotting place in the last minds that have a faith... and hell is this life,.. a lifelong war against the stream ... to resist the psychic enslavement by a uncertain safety! Life is war.,. weak minds are damned to fall... Life is war.., without fear I await the coming end... Death will lift me above myself... Death is the almighty painkiller! War... All what you are living for... All what your life is made of... stands before the final downfall! And still you won't search your soul in your confused mind... so you are lost even befors you´re dead! Nothing makes me wonder anymore... Nothing can break my infinite will... Nothing will change my divine mind... This sick society means nothing to me... Life is war... Death is peace!!! Disembodied Disembodied, I am... The flesh of that dead body that once was mine... lies rotting before my spiritual eyes... I have returned to my only real shape... Disembodied ... my soul is reborn... Disembodied... into the mental reality... I've left that touchable... but transitory reality behind... It means nothing... only a second of infinity... a mortal point in the endless space castigated by the ubiquitous death... Humans, you mean nothing... arrogant, souless race of flesh... your superficial reality is not real for me... I was reborn by death... out of the light... into the everdark... back into the spirit world... into my eternal reality... the reality of thoughts and mental power... here in my unmasqued and ancient form... I have the wisdom of aeons.... Disembodied... forever and unhuman Disembodied... real is only the immortal Desillusioned Once ago I've felt somekind of fear... and as it burns me deep within... my life seems to be unliveable for me... and I see that all ways of life in this sick world... will never lead me to my final destination... They are all slaves of the limited life they've chosen! Desillusioned... Matter will always decay to dust... only the soul that perceives itself will exist eternal... you never can escape from yourself... there's no place to hide from the face inside... and with poison in your brain... you think you're alive while your soul slowly dies! Desillusioned... Desillusioned... Desiliusioned... solitude is the absolute freedom... desillusioned... I live only for myself... I am my god! Leave me alone... leave me alone... the death you die will never be mine! Leave me alone... you will never reach my higher form of existence! Crawling maggots all over the wounded earth... eating each other and celebrate the downfall... world at it's end... and none cries a tear for it... No this was never my race... so, leave me alone... beyond reality... in the afterlife... where we will meet again Where you will be the lost... and I am the king of my life! Desillusioned... desillusioned... solitude is the absolute freedom... desillusioned... I live only for myself... I am my devil! Leave me alone... leave me alone... the death you die will never be mine... leave me alone... you will never reach my higher form of existence! Flesh is rotting... minds are sleeping... identity is a mask... all is dead... all is lost! This reality is a experience I've tasted enough... I'm ready for a new state of consciousness... everyday the wish get´s stronger... to blow my brain onto the wall... and watch through dead eyes... my blood flowing down... down! Desillusioned... life is an illusion... only death is real! And I live only for that one way transition! Everyday the wish get´s stronger... to blow my brain onto the wall... and watch through dead eyes... my blood flowing down... desillusioned... from life... desillusioned... to death!!! Liquid Fire Liquid fire in my veins... divine thoughts in my head... deeper emotions down in me... I'm above myself! Liquid fire burns my mind... illuminates my consciousness... intensifies my perception... I am one with the universe! Liquid fire penetrates my brain... as a mountain I stand... in the strom of life... my will is harder as stone! Liquid fire leads me further... flesh and blood moves in circles... only my soul moves forward... to the end of the universe! Etherspace In der unendlichen Weite meines Geistes... tief unter der Oberflache des menschlichen Daseins... gibt es einen Ort... an dem alle Träume... ihren Anfang finden und ihr Ende nehmen... Jenseits des bedeutungslosen Lebens im unreinen Licht... welches mich die Vergänglichkeit von Schmerz und Pein lehrte... gebunden durch Mauern aus Fleisch... wartet meine Seele auf ihre Erlösung... auf die Dunkelheit...auf den Tod! In darkness there is no light... but every light creates shadows... dark corners exist where ever you may be... and in each of them lurks another nameless dread... the light is transistory as a human life... immortality lies in the eternal cosmic darkness! Mind in itself... astral perfection of all what's used to be... Etherspace... the "true" reality! Black is the sky between the stars... dark is the earth without the sun... and when the last flame is extinct... eternal darkness is all what's left... all of your artificial lights won't shine forever... and even the sun will burn out someday! Riding as a wolf through the dark forest... flying as a bat across snowcovered landscapes... falling as a crystal from the wintersky... in every shape my spirit wears... I am a creature of the unlimited night! The trees are crying in the cold winterwind... so many of them are dead and murdered... and even the rest of them are weak and dying... by the unyielding plague that infests the earth! You´ve slept to long to awake now... your awakening comes to late... nothing can save you anymore... you all will die by your own hands! Enchanting is the darkness... fascinating is the night... all my senses are reaching unknown dimensions... on the other side of the light my mind is in the middle of the natural balance... in the night when the sky is open... and the cosmic stream is unleashed... I drown and will be reborn by the powers of the universe... illuminated by obscurity... I can fear the pain of the earth Mankind... for your crimes you have to pay... death to the human race! Mother earth... kill that what kills you... death to the human race!! Etherspace... life under will... Etherspace... drowned in myself... With the desire comes the misery... everyday life gets harder.. and the strength leaves my body... how old can it become... before my soul suffocates in rotting flesh... in a sick and weak body... that's damned to die slow... slow death! As I share the mystic smoke with the clouds of the nightsky... I appear in me and be myself... Only in my head I´m free... in the etherspace inside... the exstatic flood of my intangible thoughts... can never be trapped in any form of prison! Etherspace... I´m in myself and outside of my body... Etherspace... I'm in myself and outside of my body... your time is running out... this planet is on fire... and it's only a question of time until you burn with it... ignorant humans... by destroying nature you dig your own grave! As I enjoy the unique experience of dying with open wounds... I watch my life essence as it colours the snow red... in every drop of blood that leaves my body... exists a uiverse in itself... and each of them is well-known to me... micro or macro does´nt make a difference for me...the cosmos fulfills everything...everywhere! I´ve seen the future... and know that I can handle it... whatever my existence will bring in coming centuries... it won't shatter my believe in myself... you can torture my flesh with your whole pervert fantasy... you can make my body bleed to death... mind in itself... astral perfection of all what´s used to be... Etherspace... the "true" reality! But you will never force my spirit... into your golden cage of mental dependence... never I will live on my knees... when I can die on my feet! The death of my human'shape... will not be the end of my traumatic voyage.,. My journey of wisdom continues... until the end of the universe! Versunken im Ich... verloren in meinen Gedanken... Realität und Zeit sind bedeutungslos geworden... ich treibe im unendlichen... du sagst es wäre wahnsinn in meinen Augen... doch ich sehe Sphären die du nicht siehst.., und befinde mich an einem Ort jenseits deiner wahrnehmung... in der Finsternis des Ätheraume... wo nur ich sein kann! Selfconfession Ich glaube... Ich glaube an die Kraft meiner Gedanken Ich glaube an die Unendlichkeit meines Geistes Ich glaube an die Unzerbrechlichkeit meines Willens Ich glaube an die Unsterblichkeit meiner Seele Ich glaube an mich ICH BIN GOTT!!! Everdark This is reality, how you accept it... and what you´ve made of it! Down the mental vortex I drift... in spirals I´m drifting up! The hell that you`ve created... and what it made of you! Without flesh there's no touchable reality bodyless... In the void... there's nothing real! Everything falls back on itself... time always moves forward... never backwards Neither it will stand still... my spirit is endless... my soul is timeless! Everyday this body of mine gets older... never younger... there's no way back to what's gone... it's gone forever... and the future disappears while I try to reach it! In the darkest and longest night of the fatal saturn-year... I walk through the ancient forest of my childhood... these monuments of wood, so much older than my tired flesh... are whispering my secret name with the tongue... the tongue of my everlasting soul! I raise my eyes to the sky and watch the hypnotising moon... as it drowns in a sea of clouds... the guardian of my sorrow... witness of my pain! As the unyielding winterwind cuts my weak flesh without a blade... I sit down and listen to the tender voice of the nature... Here is my home... without a castle... Here are my roots... my ancient source... The sanctuary for my tortured mind.. To find peace... and a final place to rest! I was searching for somekind of a god since I can remember... since the first light has blinded my eyes... in all those years of my quest... at all those strange and unknown places where I have sought... in the darkest depth... and behind the highest light... it was always myself I have found... alone with me ... I've felt eternity! Darkness always heals the wounds of the victims of light... all angels, lost their beauty... all heavens have turned to hell! Red clouds of poison drifting over a black sky... above a danse macabre in a paradise that lies decay! Darkness always brings the mercyful sleep... which delivers the mindless slaves of life... from their languishing state... all living must die... all thinking will resignate... in a soceity which consumes itself in monotony! In me it's everdark... darker as life could ever be... dead or alive... my thoughts will move on... until there's nothing left to think!!! Alterlife As i stand on the top of this beautiful, tortured world... high above a sea of clouds in which the earth has drowned... the frosty winds from the eternal arctic ice bites my skin... and fills my mind with impressions from aeons of evolution I raise my head and look up to the endless stars... distant worlds... they seem to be so near... but yet they are unreachable for me... no gods live up hear... above the clouds... only the unyielding majesty of universal nature... and me... With dry feet I walk over the water... I sit down in the middle of the lake... surrounded by the dark silhouetes of the forests... I fall into a dark and silent trance... Somewhere... out there... In the depth of the almighty nature... far away from the breathtaking civilisation... I can feel the beat of the universe in my bleeding heart.. the source where I once have came from... and to which I soon will return to... never to come back!!! Egosphere Look into the mirror... what you see is what you are! Nothing more in your life.,. as you can see in your eyes! Look into the mirror.,. Your alone with yourself... all the demons of your life... penetrate your mind with your eyes! As I look into the mirror... I lapse into the black of my eyes... I drown in the river of my life... that flows into the abyss of my soul! In my Egosphere... I breath the cosmic energy from the shimmering stars... I want to be far away from any human presence... your humanity is the deepest abyss of consciousness... this spiritual corpse of a infirior race... has no future in anyway! Is there any meaning in your life... will it change anything if you're dead? Everything you created is damned to rot... nothing here is eternal! Every faith is is senseless... when there's nothing to believe in... religion is a prison for the mind... and when false gods infect the brain... there is no place left for a independent soul! Reality is what you see and what you feel... and each individium has it's own perception... words are nothing more than the ear can hear... and every ear listens for itself! Nothing is constant.. nothing is forseeable... and eternity is a never ending movement In my Egosphere... In my Egosphere... between the ruins in the eternal abyss of my soul... I've buried your god and took place on his throne! I spit on all those heretical gods outside here inside... I am the only god! In my Egosphere... My destiny awaits me in that what never ends! Once again I stare into the mirror.. I seek for answers in the black sea of my eyes... and I know somewhere in the depth... is an exit to leave all behind! Look into the mirror... you can see it in your eyes... every second life is fading... and death comes closer... For my deliverancs... the truth is undenyable!