Life of Agony Ugly Seasons Lyrics by - Keith Caputo Music by - Sal Abruscato and Keith Caputo It disturbs me to see that you're gorwing old It concerns me to be the one you want to hold Too busy running on fuel Thand God you made it through Let's spend the times we've missed and turn these days to gold Lost as father and son Bring us back together as one Seasons change and so did your son Strife with emotions that can't be one Too busy running on fuel Thank God you made it through Let's spend the times we've missed and turn these days to gold Want to hand you a piece of my delicate heart This song is to uplift you and not to tear you apart Father's lost in the mountains But no mountain I can't see But if that mountain should crumble come crumble on top of me I Regret Lyrics by - Alan Robert Music by - Alan Robert, Sal Abruscato, and Keith Caputo I know my days are numbered I've been in and out of phase But these days keep passing me by Good never comes my way Try to sit back and relax Try and think of something good Something else Something pure I can't but know I should Things I should have said Things that I regret And I regret No more waiting for something better to come along It's much easier to change me than it is to change them all Things I should have said and things that I regret Need to shed all my skin and start again Every turn I make is wrong I haven't smiled in so long Shed my skin and start again The memories that I once had of the good time We all used to have Shed my skin and start again Lost At 22 Lyrics by - Alan Robert Music by - Alan Robert and Sal Abruscato If I knew what to do I'd do it If I knew where to go I'd get there someday If I knew how to fly I'd fly away and forget about life for a while But it never is that easy To just pick up and go And don't do as your told 'cause life never works out that way If it were true the skies would be full every day If I knew how to fly I'd fly away Well I'm lost at 22 And I've got no fuckin' clue No I don't know if things will work out right I'm lost and confused I'm lost at 22 And I don't knwo if my life's gonna end up right 'cause they keep on telling me That I'm young, dumb and naive But that's just what they want me to believe Well I'd rather be lost at sea Than become part of this society Where the grass is always gree And the air is always clean At least that's what they want me to believe I'm lost at 22 I'm lost at 22 I'm lost Other Side Of The River Lyrics by - Alan Robert Music by - Alan Robert and Joey Z. There's blood on the floor And you're not even moving Don't really know if it's mine or yours But you aint moving Eyes are ide as you grin at me You know there's a place that you'd rather be But if you should die and I survive How could I go on knowing that I am still alive Here breathing There's a beast that's living deep within me Forcing me to feed all my needs Yeah he's in me And he brought us here to end our fears To wave goodbye to all of the tears To start a new life on the other side of the river Well my world would be over Hold on, hold on, I won't be long Wait for me, man, I won't ne long You were such in a rush to reach the other side Look at yourself with that look in your eye Smilimg wide and pre-occupied with that river Well my world would be over Let's Pretend Lyrics by - Keith Caputo Music by - Keith Caputo In the stillness of the night My eyes are closed My mouth is wide I could see her face Her beautiful hair I could recognize She looks at me cold She probably don't know who I am Mommy it's me It's Keith You had me back when But sometimes I like to pretend That she knows me That she holds me I quess I can't Because show doesn't know who I am My mind it's dreaming God it's so misleading Do you think it's 'cause I've grown old Is it true what I was told You cried to leave me You know I know it's not your fault You had a husband who was selfish and cold Belive me I know Now I hear you used to treat me cold You dissappeared and left me all alone I'm sure you didn't know right from wrong 'cause both of you were always getting stoned Ugly Lyrics by - Alan Robert Music by - Alan Robert, Sal Abruscato and Keith Caputo Have you ever woke up screaming? Have you ever woke alone? When the walls around you won't stop laughing Where do you go? Sweat seeps in your eyes at night And you realize That no one understands you at all Well I was bound to have a nervous breakdown Should've seen it coming from miles away So I packed my bags and started running My brains been shaking since yesterday But there's only so far that you can run boy There's only so far to leave your problems behind 'cause when the problem's yourself you start thinking No matter how far You'll never leave it behind No one uderstands me at all Now I'm 22 with still no clue Of who I am or show I'm supposed to be I know it to you it sounds funny You've got it worked out like it's a fuckin' disease Started asking myself do I fit in? Where I belong Could this really be me? Been feeling downright ugly Tell me is this the way it's supposed to be? So what's the difference? You're doing fine The clock keeps ticking as you lose your mind The one you need to call you Never calls Sweat seeps in your eyes at night And you realize That no one understands you at all Drained Lyrics by - Alan Robert Music by - Alan Robert and Sal Abruscato They'll make you or break you They'll swallow you whole They'll find you and bind you To every word that they own But you know yhat you need them So you continue to feed them So I hope that you're in this For all the right reasons They can't make you feel something you don't believe in But they can threaten your future And everything in it When you fail to remember just where you've been When you can't tell up from down How do you write from within? And all I know is that they're They're trying to squeeze me dry They told me They own me And all I know is that they're They're trying to squeeze me dry I look in the mirror and what do I see? A man staring back at me who used to be me He looks so familiar He once had big dreams But I can't see that he's been drained of his soul and inte- grity How It Would Be Lyrics by - Keith Caputo Music by - Keith Caputo I wonder how it would be if my mother was still around The type of talk The relationships we could have had The three of us Me, you, and dad My mouth went dry My stomach felt queasy too So empty and scared It's all because of you A dead body that turned out not to be dead No one understands Wish I really knew what happened to my mom Because my family They told me nothing but lies They figured if they just told me the truth I'd break down and cry Feel betrayed and hurt Profoundly insecure Want to know ten times on Heaven's door Still suffering from old emotional wounds I was getting worse Can't depend on them and their lies Why did she leave? How did she die? And when it gets colder outside I'll be back next year With that feeling to make me cry Wanna go visit her grave Because it's been such a long, long time Want to pick a peach rose and rest it on its side Say a prayer even though I don't believe And say goodbye Don't get me wrong I have a mind to keep me strong But there's this feeling of not knowing what went wrong And how she's dead and gone Don't think anyone thinks Of you as much as I do Unstable Lyrics by - Alan Robert Music by - Alan Robert and Sal Abruscato This cancer is killing me As much as it's killing you If it takes you away from me I don't know what I would do Just try for some peace of mind But it's so hard to find It's so hard to just sit and wait And wait some more Staring at the door Skim through the magazines Pretend like everything's gonna be alright Although you know it won't be Unstable It's hard to be the one who's strong Who's always got a shoulder to cry on Who's got a shoulder for me? When I'm about to breakdown You're never around But maybe it's better that way You've got enough to worry about You've got your hands full don't you Don't you see? This cancer is killing me Like it's killing you Mentally Unstable And all I really want to know is if she's going to be alright 'cause she's benn in there a long, long time And I've been out here losing my mind You're scared You're frightened You're so afraid of what he may say But you try and be brave For me sitting impatiently In the lobby of emergency You burst on through that door with this look on your face I've never seen before You explode into endless tears Whisper in my ear Baby Baby I've only got one more year Unstable Damned If I Do Lyrics by - Alan Robert Music by - Alan Robert, Sal Abruscato and Keith Caputo Why do I feel so alone in a crowd of people I know Is it wrong to feel so insecure so unappealing? Why walk around in disquise with a fake grin on my face? What would it prove? What would I gain? I'd still feel so out of place Damned if I do Damned if I don't But I won't turn out like you Midlife crisis at age 22 Who knew? I need some answers Cross the street and down the avenue I stopped for the woman Paid five bucks and got my palm read And she said You shouldn't be smiling boy This life line ays you're already dead Just keep on moving forward never turning back But with every step ahead I take they pull me two steps back They pull me two steps back Fears Lyrics by - Alan Robert Music by - Alan Robert and Sal Abruscato No one knows what it's like No one knows how it feels Nothing else could compare to the fears I fear And I've never been on my own Struggling all alone And all I have are these clothes on my back and this song I never had much I never believe I could be Someone, somehow, somebody Said goodbye to all my childhood hopes and dreams Time to grow up and accept real life responsibilities Listen Won't you listen to the things I have to say 'cause it just might affect the way that you think about How you live from day to day It may be easy for you But it seems like hell to me Don't you (forget about me) Lyrics by - Steve Schiff and Keith Forsey Music by - Keith Schiff and Keith Forsey Won't you come see about me? I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby Tell me your troubles and doubts Giving me everything inside and out Love's strange so real in the drak Think of the tenfer things that we were working on Slow change may pull us apart When the light gets into your heart, baby Don't You Forget About Me Don't Don't Don't Don't Don't You Forget About Me Don't you try to pretend It's my feeling we'll win in the end I won't harm you or touch your defenses Vanity and security Don't you ferget aboyt me I'll be alone dancing, you know it baby Gong you take you apart I'll put us back together at heart, baby Don't You Forget About Me Don't Don't Don't Don't Don't You Forget About Me Don't Don't Don't Don't Don't You Forget About Me Don't Don't Don't Don't Don't You Forget About Me Will you stand above me? Look my way, never love me Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling Down, down, down Hey, hey, hey, hey Ohhh... Don't You Forget About Me Don't Don't Don't Don't Don't You Forget About Me But you walk on by Will you call my name? As you walk on by Will you call my name? As you walk on by Will you walk away? Will you walk away? Come on, baby - call my name Will you call my name? I say... La la la